The song above is ''Nothing Ever Happens" by Scottish band 'Del Ametri'. To a large extent it sums up exactly how I feel about my transition this evening. From being all excited last week to being in limbo this, just waiting for something to happen!

I'll need to get to my doctor as soon as possible to get him to find out what is happening, but why can't things just run smoothly for me for once? After all, what I want is easy to describe, I simply want my real body! I want to be what I am - a woman!!

I know it IS going to happen soon and that the song is actually wrong, but I just hope someone pushes who ever needs a push soon!

I ask you!!! Two postings in one day when I'm at University and should be working!

Thankfully, on my head I have kept a covering 'up top' which can possinly be woven or whatever the term is to give me a semblance of a full head of hair. Hopefully, the hormones will 'bulk' my hair out so I'll look ultra-feminine without a wig, but somehow I doubt it and for me wigs will always be the way to be womanly. I would hate to be in bed with a man, as I think that is the way my sexuality will be as a full woman, and have to take my wig off revealing a bald or almost bald head!

Intrestingly enough I do actually know one old lady who is almost bald,but she has got 40 years on me, so I think feminine baldness at my AGE wouldn't be such a good idea in a woman.

What I really want is my own long feminine hair, ideally held up with a black velvet band!! Hence the link to the song by the Irish band The Dubliners. Despite the fact that most of the band are probably well into their 60s at least, they keep touring and if you hear of them in your area I would recommend going along to see them.

I would just love long feminine hair at some point in my life, but at the age i aam getting to plweas make it grow on the top of my head and not on my eyebrows, from my nose or out of my ears!!!!!

I have become convinced that for me wigs are the only way, but others seem to think I will eventually be OK without one. Don't worry, I won't be pulling my hair out worrying about it!!!