The video above, from 1978. was for a song called 'Wuthering Heights' by Kate Bush. Back when it was released, it was number one in out music charts (in Britain) for weeks, people used to be appalled at the way she 'screeched' as she sang! But all these years later I still love the song!

As you have probably realised, 'Wuthering Heights' relates to Emily Brontë's only novel. The Brontës lived in a place called Howorth in Yorkshire which is only a few miles from the town I live in, indeed from what I remember several family members are buried in the local graveyard. Branwell, Emily's brother used to work at a railway station just a few miles down the track from my town too.

I've been part of the transgendered community for over 6 months now, yet I have still actually revelled the name of the small town I live in to very few. The country side here is stunning, the town is packed with history, and more than our fare share of famous people come from here, it's even quite a famous UFO site!! Actually it is internationally famous for its UFO visitations!!

I would love to reveal more about me and the town I love, indeed I was born here!! But in a town of about 18 000 inhabitants would it be safe to reveal who I actually am as like many small towns we have more than our fair share of bigots! I remember reading something several months ago that it was vital not to reveal too much about yourself on-line! Am I being just a little too careful or am I being eminently sensible?

A good girl-friend of mine from on-line, Rachael, got a very negative e-mail from someone on line. Rachael, unlike most of we girls, really was born with what is essentially a female body but certain outward physical signs meant she was raised and has always been thought of as a boy. Rachael's blog is at:
http://twinrachael.livejournal.com/3500.html

My reply to Rachael was:
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Hi Sweetie.
My first thought is that jealousy can take all forms. If this person is TS he/she could well be 'up in arms' that inside you are physically female despite having lived your life as a male. I think most of we girls would love to have a 'similar problem'.

With what has just happened to you and worries on other girls blogs about phonies (See Chloe's blog: http://360.yahoo.com/profile-PMLerugyc6ppA9HkcwFsRUAhk_pYqYGhagHL1vjwQsHE i am almost starting to feel that what I was thinking of as a unique and caring on-line community is not what I thought it was. However, we can't let the 'evil' take control of our lives and that of all these unique and special people we have met on line.

It is easier said than done, but we just need to let it pass us by and look forward to our very special futures. You could try what I have done in the past, print out the e-mail, then go outside with a match and burn it!!! It may be childish, but it feels good. (lol)

Never forget that you have dozens of friends on line who love you and care for you whatever one person says!
Hugs and a whole lot more
Davinia
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The reason behind this posting is that in the five months I have been taking part as part of the TS community online, I have never seen anything negative about any of the girls. Maybe I have just been uncommonly lucky to have missed out on the badness.

I seem to remember that a girl did warn me sometime ago but i suppose I largely forgot it in the excitement of meeting such a special group of girls. Now however I am deflated and almost demotivated, but of course I am going to bounce back because it is me who will be my own girl. It's sad that my belief in our community and my sisters has been somewhat dented.

The video 'Say it Ain't So Joe' is a song about a baseball star (or something) who destroys someone's dream - at least my dream ain't destroyed! This girl is on her way!