Well, at least that’s the way this transforming ‘malarkey’ seems to work out. All the way it seems for me that when all I really want to do is get on and be a girl, I just get knocked back and forced to move forward little by little. I’ve had 33 years to advance so I should be used to moving slowly!! I should have used my mental health situation, which developed as my marriage disintegrated, as a way to push my transition forward but I never have. I think it was because I thought it would damage and destroy my chance of transitioning.

So in some ways I have only myself to blame, but it is only since Christmas that I have ‘come clean’ and told the professionals helping me regain my mental health about my deep-seated and long-standing desire to become a lady. By never revealing the real facts about myself before it was like giving someone a book to read having removed the key chapters, so they would never be able to understand the full story! These experts have been helping me recover from my whole world imploding back in 1999, so why did I never have the guts to reveal the controlling desire throughout so many years of my life of my life?

What was happening inside my head that I didn’t reveal such a key fact of my life sooner? Why did I never feel comfortable to reveal the key fact as to who I am and why I act the way I do? I AM A WOMAN TRAPPED IN A MAN’S BODY!!

Anyway this morning I did it and told the chief of the psychiatric team who have been treating me since1999 about my dream. He was very accepting of it and says he will support me every step of the way. But to me the best thing was he said if it was him making the decision I’d be on my way as I didn’t actually have any really major mental health problems anymore, and I didn’t think I was Napoleon, Julius Caesar or even Henry VIII –speaking of which click on the image below!